I don't wanna open up
I don't wanna think about it
I don't wanna show my feelings anymore, mm
If I never talk a lot
Will anybody understand it?
Do I have to hide my fears in these four walls?

'Cause you ripped my heart out when I gave you love
And made me feel weak when you gave it all up
So I lie awake thinking am I not good enough
And strangers they comment when I'm feeling down
I take it to heart but I keep them around
And I lie awake tryna drown it out

I'm too, too close to losing myself I'm barely even here
I'm too, too close to losing my senses does that make me weak?
I'm numb, numb, numb
Should I run, run, run?
I'm too, too close to losing myself

I don't wanna ghost you out
I see you getting mad about it
No, don't judge me on what I've become
Everything is getting loud
And I'm getting down about it
I'll count the days until I'm strong

'Cause you ripped my heart out when I gave you love
And made me feel weak when you gave it all up
So I lie awake thinking am I not good enough
And strangers they comment when I'm feeling down
I take it to heart but I keep them around
And I lie awake tryna drown it out

I'm too, too close to losing myself I'm barely even here
I'm too, too close to losing my senses does that make me weak?
I'm numb, numb, numb
Should I run, run, run?
I'm too, too close to losing myself
I'll drown it out

I'm too, too close to losing myself

I'm too, too close to losing myself I'm barely even here
I'm too, too close to losing my senses does that make me weak?
I'm numb, numb, numb
Should I run, run, run?
I'm too too close to losing myself
So I'll drown it out

I'm too, too close to losing myself
But I'll drown it out
I'm too, too close to losing myself